Sunday, August 02, 2009

Been some time now, hasn't it...


Things are still rolling along. Still here, at least.

So, from my last post till now, couple of things have happened. Here we go-

1) Visited my relatives in HK
2) Visited my brother in Tokyo
3) Got really chubby on the way
4) Returned to Melb
5) Enlisted into the Singapore Civil Defence Force on 9th Sept '08
6) Went through basic (regimental+physical) training for 1 month
7) Posted to the 31st Emergency Response Specialist Course
8) Finished all training on the 3rd April '09 *cough*
9) Accepted into PSB Academy, under UWA's Biomedical Science course
10) Posted to Yishun Fire Station

And since then, I've been dragging my heavy soul to and fro between no.9 and 10.
Kinda sucky really, because just recently, I've decided to cease all my studies and just focus on living and working till the day I finish my National Service period (8th Sept '10).

Not to mention I've had to watch over my handicapped uncle after he was told to move out of his place and had no place to rent after that (To this, I still know not the full story).
Life's pretty much been on rotation, with approx. 30 hours of my life fully dedicated to being at work (in station) and the rest spent lazing around or reading my textbooks.

I've picked up a whole lot of cooking, cooking about 66.6666% of my meals now (the 24 hours at station calls for delivery). Curries, various a la carte meals...

I've for some unknown reason, felt myself drifting away from Church - and even sometimes, Christianity itself. Only thing that keeps me feeling Christian really, is my personal belief of Christ, my occasional bible read, singing a couple of old-time songs and the very very occasional prayer of desperation.

In a nutshell, life seems pretty darn sad for me, doesn't it? Personally, I really don't know. I've tried too many times to sit back and just review what's gone on, but most of it really doesn't make a lot of sense.

I'm not waiting for someone to come and make things right, nor am I looking. I take this period, as a time for me to simply rebuild and reshape myself from the bottom to top. Gosh, the things I've seen and done at work. It's all coming too fast. I feel like I've grown up way too quickly. I am the youngest in the station after all. And the people there...The people I "hang" out with now. A very different and unusual world to what I'm used to. It's hard to describe it all and thus far, only my parents know really, a small percentage of what's been going on with me. As it is, strangely enough, the only things that cheer me up these days is well, nothing. Yet, I don't feel depressed or empty. Neither have I gone numb to the things in this world. I've seen the faces of men who would (or already have) take their own life out of madness or sorrow. And it never fails to sadden me about such things. I pray for their souls even then.

Even right now, I hear my uncle lamenting to a friend over the phone about how lonely, how imprisoned and how bored he is. Don't blame him though - it's been 2 months now that he's been stuck here. It takes great effort for him to simply exit the door. He's only been outside once this whole time.


Well it's good hearing myself again. I don't know what kind of person I will be to the ones I love and the ones who love(d) me, the next time we meet, but really - people change all the time!
Well hasn't this been boring. Time to hit up GTA4 on the 360!

But seriously, I did this mostly because I felt this blog needed a little updating. I mean it is in mine and Ray's MSN names still, after all this time. Comics-wise...maybe next time. Or till I get myself a nice camera and start funking around.

Anyway, hope to see any of you guys from Melbourne around soon. You have no idea how much I really do miss everyone back there.

God Bless,
Maurice.